“Be lit aflame by the magnetic pull of possibility.”
It’s been a minute… This last post was written June 2018.. Wow.. A lot has happened since then. It’s October 2021. I live in London, UK now. A world wide pandemic happened. (And is still happening). What a shift. What a time. So much uprising, so much hurt, so many questions, not many answers. A whole lot of uncertainty. Total chaos. Thinking back over all of this I can’t even quite believe it.
I have wanted to update this blog for so long but it just has not been a priority. Since deciding to move to London in early 2019, my whole life has been in transition. It’s felt like I can never fully complete a task or a project as everything has been in upheaval. First, all the planning, packing, moving out, visa application, interviews, emotional turbulence, etc. Then the actual moving and figuring out the work situation, the living situation, the what am I doing here situation, the living in a new city situation and how to even attempt going about all of it has been A LOT. Then, why don’t we throw in a nation wide lockdown, (or two or three). London, the city I had moved to six months prior went quiet. It was dead. Nobody on the streets, nobody on the tube, no one, nothing, nada. WTF. So much to process, so much stress, so many highs, so many lows, so many “I don’t knows.”
Now, five months after restrictions have lifted, it does feel as though we are coming full circle. As much as it angers me to see people totally disregarding what we all went through by not continuing to wear masks on public transit, in grocery stores, and at busy event venues, I try to remain positive that we are through the worst of it. I can feel the excitement creeping back in, the thought of possibility, the grandeur, and motivation of it all. Dare I say it but I am fully and completely lit aflame by the magnetic pull of possibility. This quote. It’s so it. I am once again in the moment of what’s next, how will I get there from here, how do I WANT to pay my rent, and how do I want to move onwards from this extremely challenging, crazy, and at odd times paradoxically blissful state. I am still looking for that sense of being settled so that I can fully breathe but if I’ve learned anything at all through this, it’s that I have not chosen a path of settledness. It’s through the upheaval that we learn, that we grow, that we dream new dreams, and think great thoughts. And you know what? It’s starting to feel really good. So from here, we start again.